Well I’m still stuck in San Francisco dry dock with my ship getting worked on. I thought taking a load of four college classes was a great idea at the time before I left to keep me busy. Well……..the classes have kept me busy, too busy. I’m retaking Principles of Accounting and falling miserably behind. I have such a tremendous time focusing on studying and understanding what I’m reading. I’d say the bigger problem is all these fantasies running around in my head about starting up a new business and buying a 3rd investment property in Louisville, KY where I plan to move to in August 09′.
I am physically and mentally becoming drained from coming up with multiple scenarios and my thought process in my head runs like this 24/7 nonstop EVEN IN MY SLEEP I’m coming up with scenarios, themes, ex:
“of what I’m going to do, where I’m going to work, where I’m going to live, if I’m going to have time to date, will my friend and I actually play in a band together, will we drive each other nutts, am I going to struggle financially, will I get paid well enough through working a side job, should I join the reserves there, will a business work, where should I locate my business, what type of business should I have, what am I good at, what do I consistently suck at, why can’t I just focus on one thing at a time, am I going to lose weight and feel better, should I take depression pills, what do I have to do to get approved for a bank loan towards my business, will my GPA be so low I won’t be accepted into an MBA program when I’m done with accounting, should I just go to community college, should I just take fun hands on classes, should I buy a foreclosed home, what side of the city is better, is this account a credit or debit, should I give up on my classes, do my teachers even know I’m not even trying, should I listen to music while studying or should I not, wear ear plugs, will have all this work done before the Giants game, will I pass these tests, I feel tired, should I just go to bed, will I have enough time tomorrow to finish my homework, man I love to sing and play guitar, will I be successful in Louisville, will it all happen there finally?”
I wonder why I’m exhausted all the time. It’s just that life is short, sure you have lots of time, but it just goes so quickly!
Recently on my “to do list” is:
Start a self help site on changing careers because I’m doing just that and it can be pretty complicated and tiring if you don’t know what you are going to do with your life.
Completing my 4 classes successful and not failing them. I had a 3.4 GPA. That shit is going down, sadly. Now I just want to pass these mother fuckers and be out. Just focus on my upcomming masters classes in psychology and my future classes in carpentry, plumbing, electrical, and culinary arts. If I am going to Louisville I suppose my plan for an MBA is off so I might as well stop taking preporatory classes for it.
whoah, do you ever have this problem? -p
I feel wi-fitv.com advertising on myspace.com is the best idea for their buck. If they invest half million dollars on banner ads throughout the myspace.com social network it should definitely drive up hits on wi-fitv.com, give it possible station sales from interested older buyers, build up a new database of videos, and bring in new investors wanting to buy a stock at a penny. This by far, in my opinion, will help the image of the company gain popularity which any website needs to do to survive and make the bucks. If you read in the recent news article it says the advertisers gave a commitment because of the new myspace.com advertisign campaign, which is “bling bling music” singing in my ears. The WTVI stock will stay volatile as any penny stock is but it should also move accordingly if older investors and new are enthusiatic about this very positive news. Now it is up to wi-fitv.com to keep alert on any errors throughout it site and contantly updating it to support its web-video interface system.
As for other things going on today I just sent out some awesome daisy crysanthemums to the ladies at the HPU military admin office. They were very charming and laughed at my humorous jokes. Plus there was a really sweet girl there and I like to go out with a bang to get the brownie points and possible response if she’s interested in another chat. So I’m pysched about sending flowers I always enjoy it whether they like them or not. It’s fun! Don’t you love unexpected surprises? I want a caring surprise! Send me something at work and I’ll be blushing all day then blow up or something.
Oh yes. I guess I should also let you know I finally started college classes again enrolled with Hawaii Pacific University. My other co-workers are doing it and if they finishes their degrees before mine I’d get jealous so I guess you can say there is a bit of competition. I decided on a BA in Justice Administration just because I have so many electives in business and I only have 12 core classes left to get the degree. So far my humanities class Sociology has been pretty interesting. I like to study groups of people so I’m diggin the class and the teacher knows his stuff. My other class will be Political Science and I hear that teacher is also a riot so I’m stoked.
Since the stock market has been lagging on actual really good content to post about I haven’t been writing much. The market is consumed with sub-prime mortgages and interest rates when earnings growth fundamentals still has been good. Boeing Corp. (BA) is in talks with China over building larger airplanes currently trading at $90.00. Since we are in the choppy confused time of the market you better buy long calls if you are bullish.
As for my first HASH club (a running/drinking group) I had a really great time. It was my first time in Honolulu, HI I was a “virgin” with some other runners. The HASH group ran in spirit on St. Patty’s day throughout Honolulu downtown and we stopped for shots, pub crawls, and lastly a cold iced keg. I had to chug down to big cups being the virgin and lets just say my body and head were feeling pretty good. I met a lot of cool new people older and younger.
I plan on making it a weekly social event to attend. If you are interested search HASH on the internet. There is a group in almost every state and some countries. It’s been going on for almost a century now I believe.
St. Patty’s day was fun. I ended up not staying out after the run and drinking for the St. Patricks day block party downtown because I had work the following day and had to be up at 8 AM. I fell asleep aroun 9 PM and now I’m refreshed enough to write this post.]
As for jobs. I walked into Papa Johns pizza near my house and the drivers said a $4 tip is the average and that is very high. I might really consider taking a second job because I feel I’m just wasting away time that could be earning more money to help me out. I really want to write some music and play songs, but if I’m not going to have anyone to work with then I might as well work more. Since I didn’t pay off my car when I had a chance now I feel I’m forced to work extra to pay it off. I might have the chance later in the year if stocks rise. I was already stupid once now I can’t be stupid twice.
It seems to me Fridays are always bearish or at least a great percentage. Every call option I’ve ever bought seems to drop on Friday. I believe I was even hinted from my mentor that Fridays stocks seem to fall after a week of traded on weakness and tiredness in the market place. I expected the market to continue falling after a small rally buying session after Feb 27’s predicted sell off. Fed Bernanke keeps trying to make investors stay optimistic about the economy’s neutral position and still solid fundamentals, but investors seem pretty gloomy. I’m gloomy, but today reading some old materials on the stock market I realized something significant which is that we are in “warnings season” when profits are lowered and companies warn about lower earnings. So I should be embracing this not being gloomy. I’m trading the wrong positions currently and that is probably why my portfolio is taking a beating. I’ve been very bad is the past 15 days I planned to pay off my car I instead traded all my money again.
“All aboard I’m all in” – for some reason I think like this and its getting to risky for my financial goals and health status.
I just recently purchased my first customized 6’6″ Classic 1970’s Fish surfboard. I’m going to have an awesome graphics design on the board with ironically my golden stock rules I keep forgetting or ignorning on the front so they are looking right at me while waiting for waves, and on the back I’m going to have a rising sun picture (like Japan’s rising sun flag) with the artwork called “rising sun” which is a male with wings stretched out taking off for hope on top of the rising sun image. Next to the male (possibly with a cartoonish image of my face) will be a mean bull on the left and a scared bear on the right. Under the drawing it will say “bull vs bear”.
This will be my stock market surfboard to remind me everytime I go surfing that I need to follow these rules to control the bulls and bears to be a master of the market. This might sound kind of nerdy and not very surfing imagery like, but surfing is a great time for quietness and memorization. The more I read those rules sitting out in the ocean the more I should live by them. I will post a picture of my board when its done.
Right now the market is shakey. This big sell off should spark a upwards rally, but we could be in for an extended decline. I think Apple Inc. in May starting to sell iPhone units will be a big help in pushing tech stocks like Apple higher, including Sony’s PS3 being a hot product with blue ray, Research and Motion’s phones, and Nintendo’s Wii performing and selling so well.
Speaking of “blue ray” this is definitely something to lookout for. I’m going to start researching companying manufacturing it and selling it because it will be the new HD picture formating tool of the future. Instead of DVD players you’ll start seeing Blue Ray players to show true HD picture which is now needed if you want to watch true HD movies/shows.
I will start offering to play with people a fun financial board game in Honolulu, Hi. It can help them and myself with some motivation to stay on track and keep going after our goals. For investors that are new to the money game it offers some valuable simple experiences that might help you start thinking differently to get you where you want to go. To read more and to participate in this fun event click on “Get Financially Fit” or click on this link.
Also recently I responded to a craigslist.org Ad in the business/management section of employment and met a really neat business woman. At first I thought she was just a beginner, needed a bit of motivation, and some small help, but the more I have emailed with her I am finding out she is a very successful extremely smart individual from my point of view. I’m very blown away at some of the things she writes and she is very ambitious and I find that rad because it’s rare to find such ambitious big dreamers out there that really want to pursue their businesses. She is creating a two new fashionable products for the trendy young crowd and fashionably fun person alike. I really like her ideas and mega plans. It would be awesome being a part of her circle of networkers that helps her complete what she wants to do. If I receive permission to post our discussions about business and marketing I plan to post them on my site for others to read at a later date. I plan to help her anyway I can freely and really want her to succeed. She seems like a fun person to play with at my financial board games and hope she might be an attendee.
On Yahoo! Finance I read this article on young people comparing their success to others. As you read through the finance article it talks about planning your success through various steps. Correct money management can make you feel like you are rich or have plenty. One piece of information I liked that it said was open multiple savings accounts to electronically deposit savings into each to track your goals for what you want – down payment on a new home, vacation, christmas presents, new car, long-term savings, emergency savings, ex.
It is never too late to save. Even my parents in their late 50’s started saving when I was young and we were always pretty broke, but just had enough to pay for everything living on small incomes.
It is easy to feel rich if you live under your income and you can enjoy simple things. If you don’t have to worry about money then you are rich. For me rich is having enough money to live on without having to work a full-time work week. So if I am to successfully trade in 1 day that can earn me a week’s income I feel pretty rich. Besides money just having friends call me to go out and play tennis, see a movie, or go fishing and having the free time to do it makes me feel pretty rich. Everyone has their own definition of rich. For most it’s having expensive luxury cars, a big house, and a big bank account. The millionaire is considered rich. You can be the poorest lowest incomed individual, but if you are really happy and you love your job (which is rare with most people working) then you are rich.
To help you on your planning to have success in money management:
1. Open seperate savings accounts and have portions of your check deposited into each on for each goal you want, so once the goal is reached you have the choice to enjoy that success.
2. If you want to excel your planning goals I suggest taking on a second part-time job if you don’t already have one. Use that extra money to put towards your goals such as paying off your house or saving for a down payment for a house.
3. If you are struggling with your finances and can’t seem to have any success with money management then you are probably spending too much or have to many luxuries. Consider turning off the cable Tv, turn off AC, use less Heat and where a coat in the house, and going out less so you can’t spend money. – Believe me I have the same problem. When my friends ask me to go out shopping or to buy food I end up spending more then I want to. It is so hard for me to just say “no” to myself. Saving more of your income isn’t easy. You really need enforcements and family to keep you on track. If you have no one to help keep you motivated then put more money into a deposit into a savings account so the money in your checking account is less so you have less to grab to spend. Also make sure you have NO ACCESS to your savings account so you can’t immediately grab cash from the savings account. Cut up your savings account checkcard. It will be the best decision you ever want to make if you are a predictable big consumer. This way you can’t touch that saved cash.
4. Eat less. Eat cheaper meals. It’s proven somewhere in some book that all you need to eat is as much that can fit into your hand. So in that theory we could all be eating less. Try to make more meals at home that are cheap. Ideas – the store brand mac and cheese. Those for 1 box serves around 4 people and costs around $.90 plus 1 cup of milk. The Hamburger Helper meals run around $2 plus 1 lb meat which costs around $6 is still a cheap meal that can serve around 4 people.
5. Try to drive less if you own a gas guzzling car. If you can carpool do it. Gas has been lowered recently, but you can still save. If you live close to work try to walk or ride a bike a couple of days out of the week. You can get some exercise your body needs and enjoy the nature or industrial city view.
6. I’d say lastly when managing your money have a big dream goal in mind always. A big success picture you can dream about to keep your mind thinking of saving daily. I think about making and saving my money every day. It is always on my mind because I really want to meet my goals even though I screw up big sometimes and spend more money I just stuff I really don’t need and end up not using enough to have make it worth it buying the items. Really make sure you need it before you buy it. Can you wait a week? See how you feel then. Impulse buying gets to the best of us. If you have a big goal then you are going to have to start making big commitments to meet your goals. A lot of my friends think I’m cheap and I don’t like to have any fun. The fact is I am having fun saving my money and yes I might miss out on some money costing activities now but I feel when I am in my 30’s and possibly have the choice to do whatever I want and not have to work what I did in my 20’s will have paid off and I will be compared to be ultra-successful to my friends that live more crazy, money spending, luxury life styles now.
Hi. I was watching some older episodes actually the first episode of Beauty and the Geek by MTV. I like the show. I guess in the end the dumb beauties learn some stuff and fall in love with the Geeks because they are simple and would do anything to make them happy – what geek wouldn’t for a chance with a hot babe? The show is basically hot dumb babes with extremely talented smart geeky guys. I can relate with these multi-talented badly dressed sexually unappealing geeks, although I think I’m just critisized as creepy or weird. I actually enjoy the shows because these guys seems so authentic and real. They could be actors, but they have all the elements of very hopeless romantic nerdy guys. As quoted in the show by a beautiful women “It’s like its the revenge of the nerds movie”. She is right. I do not have cable or MTV. I was watching it on the ship where we do have VH1 and MTV. I don’t watch much Tv because I’m more of a movie guy or really great sitcom show if there is one on. I use to watch repeats of Seinfield and of course yes Friends. Who doesn’t? A lot of people are into Family Guy, but I really never got the show. I suppose I’m too geeky to get it. I’m not much of a dude’s dude. I don’t talk shit about women behind their backs. If a person feels I did talk shit then if I am wrong I’ll respectfully admit it and keep my integrity. I probably compliment beautiful women more then I should when I don’t receive any compliments back. I guess I can’t expect it, but a surprising nice comment does works for a geeks confidence level.
I hope these nerdy geeky guys do learn something or did since the show is over I think. I have hope in them that possibly they might make it to second base within the next 5 years instead of 10 when women will just want them for their millions they are worth in the long term.
As for a short brief on stocks: The DJIA and NAS barely moved and NYX and MA moved around 3% gaining back points slighty showing and uptrend although I still feel I have not confirmed where the market will go. I still feel down in Dec 2006. The billionaire Kerkorian sold out his 10% stake in GM. I think he’s smart. GM wasn’t really looking into the future. I think a conglomerate mix of Nissan and Renault motors would made a stronger corporate company instead of cutting jobs they should be increasing growth making more efficient safe cheap cars. There is so much technology out there theses days like hydrogen fueled powered cars. These cars have already been tested and have a proven system. Once the first major car builder player comes and starts it they will own the monopoly somewhat like how Apple has created a classy smooth looking iPod music player that no one can compete with the world is in love with it. A car maker these days has to do just that. To have the monopoly they need really efficient MPG, clean engine, roomy, and a very young likeable car. I love my 2005 Honda Element EX with all its newer features and smooth ride, but I would dig Honda a lot more if they came out with a hydrogen powered one that got 100-200% better gas mileage. I am currently getting around 20 MPG city and 23 highway. Its a bigger 4CYL but I was expecting better MPG then that. I love the entire room space. It has so much space bigger then any SUV in its class.
Okay so something I didn’t mention about one of my roommates. Well around late August I put up 2 Ads on craigslist.org and myspace.com for a person to roommate with me. I was offering to split my room, my bed, my closet, and my desk for $250/Month and $300/Month if I was absent on patrol with the USCG.
At first what seemed like a brilliant money saving idea slowly turned into one of my worst nightmares as a dude like me could ever get himself into. I received some replies mostly SPAM from europe students then 2 real ones. Out of the two the current person seemed most likely to get along with. I shall keep the female unnamed. She seemed pretty real and fun. I talked to her on the phone twice. I mean this was pretty weird to begin with. A chick and a dude that have never met sleeping on the same bed together, but I was like I don’t care because that’s an extra $250 I can save which is almost 10% of my take home pay after paying Uncle Sam. I’m sure you are thinking by now this dude is going to get into deep shit, which I totally did.
So I pick her up at the airport because she came from the northern east coast and wanted to vacation in Hawaii and maybe get a job and stay. I was upfront with her about how the conditions were going to be. My place isn’t pimpin as the call it these days. To me I feel its not a bad place, but if I would knew more about this chick I definitely would of not of accepted her as my roommate. So back to the airport scene. This was funny. I’m there on time and we meet. A little strange but very new you could say. I already get the vibe off her she thinks I’m kind of creepy, but this is okay because I’d say that is natural with most women I start to have a conversation with. When all I can do is talk about money and stocks it kind of bores women resulting in singleness.
I take her on a drive and we walk in Waikiki to work on getting to know each other before I take her back to the 3rd world country crib because that is what it is. =) She seems nice, very smilely, attractive, well dressed, and a bit not so smart. I’m sure she is smart, but if you talked to her she would come off as a big ditz. I’m like whatever as long as she has the money I can invest in more stock options.
We get back to my place and she sleeps on her side and I sleep on my side of the bed. A big interesting moment I’d say for a big geek like me that hasn’t been with a woman for a long time and I’m not talking months. 😉 I guess I really did not think this part through in my big brilliant idea. All I think about is saving money, trading stocks, work, and going surfing; dating women and relationships don’t play a big part in my daily life since I’ve been so goal oriented. I figured sharing it with a female keeping it platonic would be pretty heterosexual thing to do. If I had a bunk bed or two seperate beds then it would of not mattered since I sleep in a berthing area with 16 guys on the ship. I didn’t think of any sexual interests in my plan. In short, I liked her at least very attractively. I believe I already knew the first day I was a moron to get a hot chick to move in with me. From her pictures she didn’t seem very attractive. Being attractive wasn’t the main issue to get a roommate. Just someone that could fit on the bed with me and still have space between us and staying clean would be nice. In person I was sexually desiring her (big problem #1). I didn’t want to buy her anything or evolve around her, but I knew we weren’t going to be roommates forever. So I thought why not make a move. I did make a move and well I was wrong about that. Things got weird and I was flushed down the toilet. I accepted my actions taken. I figured if I never tried to make a move and she started dating other guys then I’d regret it the rest of my life. I’m very shy, but I felt I got to get to know her enough to take the fall if it happened. I’m glad I tried. My confidence level went up even though I am still kissless and dateless, but hey I got my bro’s right? Right (sigh). 😦 Trust is something later that did not hold through…
So it has been almost 2 months now. She is moving out. For the first month I believe it was chill. All the roomies would hangout with my friends and we all got along pretty fine. There were some episodes of wackness, but we made through them. Recently she has gone a-wall herself because my drunken friends leaked out bad rumor info and it got to her and lets just say shes pissed and thinks I’m some big creepy punk now. I took her bitching and quietly took it with no fighting back or arguing. I’m a cool smooth dude and I will obtain my status. I let her say what she wanted to say and said, “Okay”. During this time period I have to admit our relationship as friends or should I say aquiantances was getting sour and it was opening my eyes more that she was just a bitchy complainy 12 year old girl (shes 20) and that she sounded fake and is just a big boring fake. I am not putting this sterotype on women, just her. None of my friends liked her and my friends are welcoming people so that kind of opened my infactuated eyes a bit. So now I’m like yeah she might have a hot bod, but shes just a big bore. Lets just say she loves to complain and call people “stupid” very much so. It is very annoying, mean, and stupid on her own part. She might think its cute, but believe me its not. I’m glad I can see through her negative intentions.
I’ve met some other girls during that time also and it made me realize how much she isn’t worth taking out to dinner. Theres women I meet and really want to take them out, they are just usually already in relationships. For the most part I believe if you are a great gal and work and getting men to love you then you are going to have a man. Most women I meet that are single are single for a reason. My reason for being single is because I want to be single. It’s cheaper and being with a woman makes me spend much more money. Hey if you meet a girl that likes free outdoor activities don’t loose her! It’s rare.
So now 2 months later into my big plan I will soon go on patrol and my room is empty. What? What do you think I’m going to do? Oh you know it! Repost an another Ad to sublet my room for a couple of months until I come back for around $350. Every bit of money helps I think. As long as I don’t have to personally room with anybody I’m still going to do it.
I also plan on moving out and getting my own studio or 1 bedroom place with maybe 1 roommate that lives exactly like I do if I can find one. Or room with people that have professional 7am-4pm type jobs, and goto sleep during the weekdays by 11pm. If you want to party during the weekends fine; just let me wake up with energy during the weekdays. I admit to you and everyone I like my sleep! I dream a lot and its fascinating being in your own dream world.
So I learned my lesson. If you need the money and you are going to split your bed with a female #1 make sure shes ugly (no attractiveness), #2 sign a contract on the room to keep the person from moving, #3 make sure the person is smart and not so barbiesh.
Well guys and gals. good night. -P
Today my car was broken into when hiking Ka’Iwi Park. After coming back around 3 hrs later I went to open my door and looked across and there lay my passenger door window shattered all over my seats and floor. My glove department was open and my black backpack was taken. Luckily the thief did not take my phone or wallent somewhat hidden in between my soda holders. The thief did get away with an awesome Canon Powershot with full professional waterproof camera case valued over $600 dollars. I didn’t really get upset about it at the scene how most people would react flipping out. To me it’s just another materialistic thing. I can replace it. I earn plenty enough through my home-based business that even if my car was stolen I’d say fuck the bastards.
At this very moment my roommates have come home eruptly drunk again. Noisy and undelightful to be around.
One thing I’m good at is moving forward. If I let myself become miserable over something I can not change and get back then I can not move forward. Yes, my full coverage insurance isn’t going to pay for my smashed window which will be another $250 bucks out of my pocket and yes I have no digital camera anymore I received for graduating boot camp, but it can be replaced.
So I forgive the thief and drive home with this smashed passenger door window with confidence that I can buy another window and get through it. Although I know its going to set me back some money I work really hard to get I also know that hey maybe that thief needed the money from that camera more then I do.
I think it was more stressful waiting for the police to fill out a police report, calling my insurance company finding out they don’t pay for it, and lastly that the window for my car model is out of stock and will have to be back ordered from the “main land”.
I feel I’ve coped with my small loss today pretty well. I haven’t even told anyone. I really don’t find it all that fascinating. Well, now the music is on and the drinking continues with the roommates who joked me for doing home-based business stuff. I guess the jokes on them now since I’ve been able over the past few months been able to save up quite a sum from doing One24 Online. I suppose instead of falling asleep her I will just go back to boat and sleep in my chill rack. I have softball games tomorrow (what fun!) and probably will play tennis inbetween. I got a really red sunburn today so I will be putting on lots of lotion.
If your car has been broken into please express your thoughts postive or negative. -P I have to admit when my sweet Nikon D40 SLR was stolen off a Philly AMTRACK train it was much worse due to the pictures on it were of my baby niece I took earlier that week. So remember if digital BACKUP BACKUP like on Flickr before it’s too late!
Okay. I recently wrote about smoke almost a week ago and I think I’m about to quit now even though I have around 6 packs left from a carton of Newport 100’s I bought. Last night I thought I’d buy me a girly girl mixed drink at the bar. I ordered a Lua Punch. It has 5-6 different vodkas, orange juice, and 7-up. I dranks two up pretty quick and smoked over 6-8 cigarettes in between and after them. I could not sleep because I got a headache and stomache ache from a bundle full of smoke in my tummy. I feel grose. I’ve also noticed lately that when you wake up in the morning even if you haven’t had a smoke for a day you wake up with that smoke nicotine taste in your mouth. I also find my mouth tasting like smoke even after I’ve eaten without smoking. It’s such a bland kind of burnt coffee cappaccino taste in your mouth. I think if I am going to continue to smoke I will limit myself to just when I drink hard and 2 smokes a day with taking days off until I am finished with my packs unless I can sell them off otherwise.
I had a girlfriend once that went to bed after smoking and kissing was very undelightful. I don’t want to be that significant other with smoke saliva burnt breath, at the same time smoking does slow down my heart pressue. I feel its fair to say that just because you are stressed out doesn’t mean smoking will relieve stress because it doesn’t, but it does something psychologically.
Okay. I’ve always been one to judge about smoking. Lately with a lot of stress in my life I wanted to see if the habit actually relieved the stress. It does. I finally understand why people smoke cigarettes. Well at least for me it gives me a total high like I just took down a couple of shots of tequila. The burning sensation in my throat is not the most enjoyable, but the all around feel of your heart slowing down and the nocotine going throughout your body like a strong beer really relaxes yourself. I’m not saying you should pick up smoking. I’m not even a smoker yet. I did buy my first pack of Newport Menthols. $6.55 a pack. I do not think I will be smoking very long. When I do light up I have to admit I’m pretty buzzed and happy for a moment. I’m actually happy a lot, but its more of a center of the universe happy inside. I’m balanced yet have many stressful demanding things I have to do in my daily life to keep up with the pace.
I remember criticizing and trying to get an ex-girlfriend to stop smoking. She smoked a lot. She must of been very stressed out. I just enjoy a cigarette for what it is. I don’t need a smoke. I don’t even smoke regularly. Maybe I am just a social smoker. I do not want to become a full-time smoker and have already made the choice and will power in my mind not to.
So if you have strong will power and you want a really great buzz smoke a cigarette and cool off. It’s not far off from a strong beer and better yet have both. I’m not promoting to kill yourself with cancerous tobacco chemicals. Smoking is still bad for your health.
It’s also bad for your savings account figuring in a year you could easily spend over $2,000 just on cigarettes. That is $2,000 more you can have to save.
My lungs actually feel kind of smoked out and burnt after 3 cigarettes in less than 30 minutes. I need to keep it to less than 2 smokes a day when I actually choose to smoke for the day or meet a girl that won’t let me smoke and gives me a buzz being with her.
Have you ever just had a crush on a person you can not have? For some center of the Earth reason the women I meet are not interested in me and it strikes to me very interesting. I suppose the point that I find out they already have some boyfriend in some distance land doesn’t help me either. I suppose I could go to the bar buy a girl a drink, lie to her, and get her home but then it would really defeat the purpose of wanting to meet someone I’d actually want to take out. Recently I met a girl who’s passionate about Egyptian pyramid history. For her age I find her highly intelligent that says shes been studying it since she was 5. It hard to believe, but not really when I’ve been listening to the stock market daily report when I was 5 in the back of my parents old Plymouth Reliant. Shes more of girl that doesn’t try to dress to impress, but I kind of like that. She described her boyfriend to me and I wasn’t impressed with the vocabulary words she used. She’s also in the military and its common ground to communicate on. Too bad she wasn’t single. So the dating world goes on and I find myself in a vast ocean, who will I bump into next?
Recently in the house of pain or should I say house of gay because now I think my own female roommate is going gay on me. Maybe bi? She recently just met another chick just like her. I mean EXACTLY like her. I think they hit it off great because both of them don’t realize how much of stuck up snobs and complainers they are. I do not want to sound mean but they really are. They expect the world, a diamond ring, a pony, and a fancy meal and that’s the first date. I had a crush on her, but knowing myself its only sexual. Okay. She has a bangin body and I want it. I’m a dude. Dudes like to have sex. We think sex all of the time. I’ve been out of the house a lot lately hanging with my guy friends so I wouldn’t have to trap myself around her. I think this new friend of hers will now occupy her time, which is probably the best thing for me.
My other roommate that just recently came home a Navy guy who is a dick to women calls my roommate stupid and has tatoo’s and all that big man stuff has probably actually gotten farther then I have with her. He isn’t a dick to me. I’d say if he is with a woman he tries to get what he wants. It makes me somewhat jealous because I do like her a lot physically and this other dude sure does seem to pull better moves in shorter amount of time then myself. She isn’t a bad person nor has she been mean to me, but I think she tries to ignore me. I don’t think we’ll ever even be friends because its uncomfortable. I like to have it all or none. So I’ll always just be an acquaintance to her. This isn’t some game to get into her pants, but I actually thought I had a fighting chance. The roommate rule totally busted my chance. Do I still want the chance? Hmmm. Not really after I met a more simple fun extremely smart woman.
I really don’t get what women want. You ask them and most of the time the desired wants you really don’t want to hear unless shes very genuine and then you might really want to give it to her, like yourself. I can’t say my roommate is very genuine. She is very wanty of material things and expects to be a house wife with a very expensive ring.
My other female roommates are working hard at getting a career in what I do now. If she’s successful at getting a job she’ll be paid very high probably like $90k starting off. Her girlfriend suffers from her drunkness. I hope they both get smart and stick away from the alcohol.
The Navy guy has left again on patrol I believe and won’t be back for a while. He’s a very big drinker. This dude drinks. I don’t think his DUI or problems with drinking and the military stop him.
Don’t get me wrong I like to drink too. I can not say though I will drink myself to puke like my roommate who acts like a sick 12 year old girl in the bathroom putting her fingers down her throat. Not my style. I actually took care of her like I do everyone else and they don’t care and rather I don’t. I’d rather they just don’t come back if they are going to be that drunk that I can’t sleep and have to go into work tired.
I woke up this morning twice. The second time feeling my body move at a medium pace back and forth. I thought I was just dizzy and it was a bad mix of liquers from the previous nights drama or should I say 1 hr of sleep from last night. It felt like someone was on floor tugging on my bed back and forth trying to wake me up. At first I was worried it was a roommate dieing from unaccidental causes so I got up but no one was on the ground. I checked on my roommate in the bathroom. Yeah, she was still there passed out in her vomat on the floor so I took her pulse which was very slow and then picked up her head and gave her a pillow and put a towel over her. The other two roommates were in seperate beds so I guess they didn’t make up. I didn’t realize the earthquake was the thing that was rocking me back and forth. Since I had to leave for work early my neighbors on top told me what just happened and I put 1+1 together. Going to work all traffic lights were off including my military base. The state waited to turn power back on to prevent any aftershock fires. Smart for them, but miserable in the meantime for the residents, tourists, and military. I later found out the Big Island had a 6.5 ticker but after watching the news it seems like a joke because nothing really huge happened that created fatalities so consider them and us lucky. When it hit Oahu it must of been around a 2.
As for partying with my roommates who can not hold down their liquer and always act like pissed off eight year olds because they are either jealous, mad, or depressed about something. I can understand not feeling well any puking up and going to bed, but when you are so drunk you can’t even puke, you can’t even hold your balance to puke, and you keep slamming yourself against the wall without accepting help to get it over with then you aren’t just a problem you’ve become in business what we call a big liability. Know when to say “no” to drinking more. I suppose its personality over anything. I hear that rape commericial “I thought “no” meant “yes”. Where I think in my situation its more like they want to say no but they keep saying yes until they pass out. Why? I have many big problems in my own life that I feel upset about and will not be able to fix, but although they are in my daily life I’m not going to try to drink myself to death over it. I guess it shows how “weak” you really are for having to drink to forget. Vulnerable to the easy numbing-forgetting temptations to make your life seem better. I say at least they could do is write up a Will and put any money and possessions I could sell in my name so if they do die being dumb and drunk then at least for all the commitment to keeping them alive I could be rewarded a bit. I could that probably sounded bad, but I don’t care because they do not care about themself. I think I will be moving out of this house when I come back from patrol and find either new roommates that don’t drink or just my own studio.
I feel I am the victim here because of their own actions. Who wants to be sober trying to get 2-3hrs sleep for work with cranky stupid drunk people around you hurting themselves and vomating. I feel like I am an alcoholic abuse social worker in my own house. I already work over 100 hours a week, can’t you give a dude a break?
First I want to start off saying while going surfing yesterday at Sand Island Park where there were absolutely no waves I saw a man stuck with his car in the middle of the road. He was trying to push it by himself and it was like a lincoln, a heavy one at that. I immediately stopped my car and got out to help him and got it moving with my arm muscle to put less stress on the man. I know what its like to have your car not work and you need help getting out of the way besides the help of the problem you don’t know about. Also now the costs running in your head to fix it. He was very grateful he was probably in his 50’s and only 15 feet away a group of people just watched him in pure humiliation. I didn’t feel bad for him, but it felt like instinct to just jump out and run to his car to push it as if I was saving someone from the water. I didn’t feel good about it like some natural high. It just felt like I was born to help this man at that certain point in time.
My roommate sat next to me and probably was a bit curious when I leaped out of my car to run up and push his car into the parking lot. I really don’t know what she really thinks of me. I know shes a bit stuck-up, but I could be very wrong about her. Sometimes I wonder if its just in my head. I’m never really mad at her. It’s too hard. I feel she means well and isn’t excessively pushy. She is always laughing and having a good time and she laughs at almost everything I do. Could she be seriously faking it because if she isn’t she will definitely miss me when I leave for 2-3 months on patrol again into the pacific oceans. I think I’m going to miss the hanging out too. We laugh so much and talk about the dumbest stuff. I haven’t been able to have a long conversation with someone like her for a really long time. I’m more like, “Hello. Uh huh. Yea. Cool”. I don’t talk much. I’d rather listen. Most people think I’m sad, mad, frustrated, or all three all the time because I’m so very still and quiet. Don’t worry though I am okay. I’m just at peace thinking and dreaming off about something or laughing in my head at some funny scenario I just thought of that’s probably pretty dry humor. I really wish she was never my roommate though the people shes knows makes me not too impressive because I don’t come from a family of money, business, bran new cars, or going out to fancy dinners. I think its good we are just roommates. I just really wanted to take her out to the most expensive place and dress up really nice and have a really great time and go dancing together. I think I could still pull it off, but since were roommates I hear myself telling me not to show off and not to care as much. To lay off and keep the big empty space there. It’s the only way to keep things real between us.
My other roommates are pretty cool. I have to say everyone is an actual binge drinking alcoholic except for me. In no way have I ever drank more just to get over someone, ask out a women, or just go overboard. I’m not saying I’ve never thrown up after drinking because that I have, but its rare that I will just over drink and be a hardcore drinker. I just like my buzz. I’m not really the crowd pleaser with these people so I’d rather just relax and probably just take a zonked out nap. Later to get up and goto the club to have another couple of drinks. I can’t stand drunks. I think they are low lifes and only get drunk because its the only thing they can do well (which shouldn’t be hard). I hope you don’t feel busted on if you are a person that partys overly hard, but for real think about what you are doing. It really doesn’t make him/her any better looking and it isn’t going to make you feel better tomorrow. Enjoy yourself but don’t kill your body.
The majority of the people that actually get to spend time with me know how understanding and thoughtful I am. I’m a very calm person with a big dead volcano inside me. It takes a lot to errupt. I judge quickly. So if within the couple of times we hangout you don’t impress me with something you want to do with your life or something you currently do we probably won’t hangout much. I consider myself quite adorable to women just not want they want right now. I guess that says I’m boring in some department or that there is something very unlikeable. I consider myself badass. I don’t know anyone cooler then me, hotter then me, smarter then me, bigger goals then me, and as much real personal success as me. This brings me to the conclusion that I must be a strange guy. I mean I am pretty strange. I’m quite unpredictable yet I’m pretty set in my ways of what I want and how I am going to get it. Some people would call me a psychopath. I just call myself normal. Aren’t the Ninja Turtles normal? They eat pizza!
I miss being a teenager. Those were some depressing yet fun years with my music friends. We were are own like Jackass gang and post-Nirvana side bands. No responsibility and you were free like a fish in a big ocean with nothing really to stop you but a bigger fish with more fish years.
Well thats about it for personal blogging. If you read to much about me you just might have to puke up anything you just ate or drank. Cheers, – P